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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

Hugs from me. Recovering always takes more time than we ever imagine it will, but BIG hugs as well xxx

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

Well, I read the title as β€˜In a German Ouroboros’ and it took me a minute to get up to speed. I wouldn’t be surprised if there was a German ouroboros out and about, hopefully bringing you schnitzel with noodles, because nothing surprises me these days. Hope you all feel better soon. πŸ’œ

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

I read the same thing!!!

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Thank you Nicola. I’d happily welcome a schnitzel beating ouroboros into the house. πŸ˜‚

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

I'll be doing NaNoWriMo, but not engaging with their platform. I'll be in a local discord group for NaNo writers, as well as engaging more with backstage member chat at Writers HQ. So yeah - daily discipline and word watching in community, but not on their platform. What's that? Like, Shadow Nano or something? I'm expecting/ hoping that Substack will have a tab for it.

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

And hope things pick up soon. It's all process, right. Go gently on yourself

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I’ll probably just be hanging out in private Discords as well. It’s a shame for anyone who doesn’t already have those connections though.

Maybe over time their leadership will shift and change positions. It’s truly mind boggling to me.

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

Sending you big recovery vibes. I often find that actual recovery is even longer than the buffer that I plan for, too.

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So much longer! 🐌

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

I’ve been doing my own research (ie trying to be self-cognizant) around my own self care spirals, especially because I’ve been on two big (for me) trips in two weeks.

One was a trip to nyc where the logistics had been planned and I literally bought a ticket 18 hours beforehand. The entire vibe was β€œthis is all an accident anyway so don’t stress.” And it felt like a lovely energetic reset / boost from the universe.

One the second trip, a work training, I literally sat in my hotel room sewing and audiobook listening for three nights so that I could β€œsave energy up” for one night out on my last evening of my last trip. I had an excellent time, met lovely people, enjoyed amazing food, good conversation with my Uber driver… and still paid the ND tax of leaving my phone in the Uber vehicle and getting increasingly not okay as I watched the location of my phone get further away from my laptop screen as I used the hotel phone to continuously call my own phone hoping the Uber driver would hear it before he made it home that night. That was two days ago and I still haven’t slept.

This is me specifically spiraling up and down (which I’ve just realized in the last three months has a higher likelihood of happening when away from the structure of my β€œnormal”).

Thanks for holding space for me to write this really long comment (which I share to support you and say β€œI agree!”) and for yourself. You sharing,as your able, helps us reflect. That’s powerful. Thank you.

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Solidarity! I love knowing I am not alone. πŸ¦‹

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

Caught the reference *immediately*! I hope things get easier soon, and that the changing season brings a visible reduction in bees to help with wasp trauma. Autumn has arrived here and we're seeing far fewer bees of any sort, but if those f*@&ing spiders would stay OUT of my house...!

After a few very hot, very smoky summers, I absolutely lost all interest in gardening outdoors and started collecting houseplants. My collection is now much closer to triple digits than single digits, but mostly I find it very regulating to putter around with.

Hugs, and I hope everybody has a speedy recovery from the germs!

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Thanks Melissa! Yes, the weather has finally shifted! But right before it did we had some unfortunate incidents that retriggered things. 😣

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

I hope you can find yourself out of the goo phase soon. I was balancing on the edge of burnout myself just before our family vacation, but oddly, being forced away from writing/making content has helped a little. (So will being back home!)

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Solidarity! πŸ›πŸ¦‹

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Oct 16Liked by Sarah Shotts (they/them)

I, personally, loved the reference. I'm sorry to hear that your planned period of rest has ended up with you needing more recovery. I know how frustrating that can be. Wasps are the worst, and I really hope you're able to get back outside without the extra struggle soon.

I finally had the energy to do some editing on my poetry book this weekend. There's still plenty to be done, but it felt good to get past some of what I felt stuck on. Today I'm going to be making some more solid plans to take steps to finish it, and then to decide how I want to try to publish. It feels overwhelming but not impossible, and I'll take that for now.

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I love hearing what you are up to! Taking the next small step gets you there - I promise! 🐌

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That poster! Sending love. ❀️

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Rest well, recover well, bee well.

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🐝🐝🐝

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